I lost my precious son who was 34 years old on 21st August 2020. It was so sudden, just two weeks history of back pain, gave him ibuprofen and paracetamol ( I'm nurse in A&E) thought he must have pulled his muscles while exercising, pain was unbearable, GP thought sciatica prescribed gabapentin. Pain didn't subside, he developed shortness of breath and palpitation, weight loss on third week. GP called for blood test, found out his oxygen saturation was low, heart rate was fast. Taken him to hospital. After blood test found his haemoglobin was pretty low only85. He had two units of blood transfusion, had CT scan, X-ray, didn't show anything. Because of low HB doctor thought could be leukaemia, so next day he had bone marrow biopsy which we had to wait for a week for the results. He kept telling me mum I'm strong and positive don't worry I'll fight for it. After fourth day of admission he started looking weak and more short of breath.still we had such a high hope. On sixth day we got some results which was confirmed cancer but didn't know where it is. Next day we got results it was devastating news. Pancreatic cancer not curable only a week left for him. We both cried it was unbearable. I called all his friends and family, my daughter ( his sister) came from Scotland next day morning he passed away in my arm. He couldn't take anymore.
he was kind gentle, caring loving son. Everybody says a perfect name Sunny always smiling and kind. We were living together after my daughter moved to Scotland with her boyfriend. A divorcee devoted to children, he was my best friend, I felt so secure with him. He never smoked, no alcohol, no fizzy drinks, regular exercise, swimming. Working full time, he loved travelling, trekking, music, video games, reading, cooking. He was writing food journal wherever he traveled. Iceland was his best place.
I love the selection of his music. Gravity from John Mayor was my best which he downloaded for me. I'm using my iPad which is a last year Christmas present from my son.
I miss him so much, I'm heart broken, my world is upside down.
a grieving mother
Ash