Hi,
I'm not really sure how this works but I am struggling to comprehend this feeling and would love to chat with people who understand where I'm coming from.
My mum was diagnosed with cancer about a 7 months ago now, she is the strongest person you would ever meet. Because of her strong character I became convinced that she would survive and still have that hope. Either way, last week she told me that the doctors have given her three weeks left to live.
I don't know how I should feel because it's almost like grieving for someone who is still alive? I have been coping okay for the past week but have been having outbursts of tears, especially when sitting round the dinner table or when I look at her for too long. Her liver has been affected by the cancer so her eyes and skin have turned yellowish.
I am seventeen years old and coming up to my A levels in the next couple months - it's the worst possible timing and am starting to worry that it will affect my grades because she's all I can think about. Sometimes I'll be sitting in a lesson and thinking about what I'm going to tell people at her funeral and how i'll ever stop crying when she does go. Being a single mum, she is my best friend and support system.
It's going to be so difficult and I am so shocked and unprepared.
Thank you for any response
Daisy x
