Hi, I have no idea whether anyone will actually see this. As I know it's a discussion but...I don't know.      My mum got diagnosed yesterday with breast cancer. I had a feeling this would happen, nothing ever goes right for me or my family. I'm 16 years old and I have three younger siblings. A 4, 6 and 11 year old. And it's just utterly insane. You know? I mean I just literally finished my GCSE's and then this bombshell. But I saw the letter about my mother saying she had an appointment check-up for suspected breast cancer       And that just shocked me. (I apologise for the awful typing, I have no idea what's going on with my phone) I couldn't focus on exams and was so awfully worried about her all the time. And they done so many things like scans and taking samples and yesterday she went in for the report. I was so incredibly anxious...I mean my dad has mental health problems and then my mum has cancer. I know there are people with worse lives than me but when my mum came home and I could see she had been crying it broke me. I asked her and she didn't say anything, then she stared at my little sister as if she'd never see her again. I'm being brave and courageous as I can be to support her and we do have other family members to support us. It's just so shocking. I like every time I say it; it just hits me again. And I don't know what to do. A few weeks ago; I was discussing with my mum things as useless as prom dresses! And now she's just I don't know. She's going to have a mastectomy  I think is what it's called. Removal of the whole left breast. And I'm afraid for her, I'm trying to think positive. That hopefully she'll be better after the operation but no one know. I deny to believe in statistics because there's still that chance. I don't even know what I'm saying its a bit crazy. I have to look after three siblings  with the occasional help of family members. But it's so shocking. This has always always always been my worst nightmare and it's coming true. I know this hasn't really even asked a question nor have I actually asked to discuss anything rather I've just said everything that's happening with my mum and how horribly I'm dealing with it. I'm just confused and in shock. Has anyone had their mum have breast cancer? And any.... I'm sorry I can't actually think logically right now. I've just decided to use this as my outlet to spill out my heart of my fear and anxiety. Has anyone had similar experiences? But ended up being positive? I need some light to be shone. I apologise for my awful paragraphs. I haven't even put any in! I just want my mum to be okay and to live a long and happy life. She's only 37! How crazy, but age does not matter in these cases.