Hello there - what an awful situation for you & your dad. I understand why you must feel you can't bear what is happening & that it is making you feel unwell. You'd hardly be human if you weren't feeling this way. You say you don't know where to turn but you've found this site & people here will do whatever they can to help & support you beginning now with your asking for a bit of help. Talking through your feelings is important - if you bottle it all up & try to cope alone that will only add to the stress of it & make you feel more unwell.

You bore the pain of your mum going tho' Alzheimer's & that must have been terribly hard so you are obviously a strong person - probably stronger than you think. Somehow, hour by hour & day by day, you will find a way to cope with whatever is to come. I think we human beings can, & do bear, what seems unbearable especially if they have a bit of support & understanding & here you won't be alone with it. 

If your dad is able to come home I hope you will have the help of Macmillan nurses who are brilliant. In the meantime might you think about seeing your GP & telling him/her that you are struggling to cope - there might be something that can be done to help you & your dad.

In the meantime do keep posting here if you'd like to - as I say talking thro' your feelings will help at least a little bit. Will be thinking of you. xx

Thank you. 

Hello ive just read your post ime so so sorry it seems like your realy struggling may i suggest you go to see your gp he will be able to help stress is awful ive had similer it leads to anxiaty more stress . My partner died peacfully and that was realy a blessing your mum will be around you one way or another ime not saying this just to make you feel better theres so many posts on this site about this . I cant realy say much more but please go and see your gp .ime retired and for a while i used to ring the samaitans talking to a stranger can sometimes be better than talking to a loved one bereavment counciling can help keep you strong for your poof dad and yourself .the samaritans are there for everyone the numbers free from mobiles .when my partner was diagnosed with terminal concer i couldnt start going to pieses in front of her i had to appear confident and possitive so acasonaly when i i started to panick  inside i i would say ime just popping to shop drive up the road and ring the samaritens just that few minutes chat would level me out again . They say we learn by experiance and its true but we need to pass it on to help others .best wishs to you your family and your Dad .paul

thank you. 

Your welcome but how you feeling now did you go for help or has it all been to much?? Please dont give up .p

I went to my doctor yesterday as my dad started his end of life meds yesterday. I’m not on my own. My partner, brother and sister are here. 

Its weird to have a situation with my dad that I can’t control or make better. Very stressful, I’ve got to keep going though. One foot in front of the other. My head understands it but my heart doesn’t.