Hi. I've never posted before but I don't know what to do since my husband died 6 weeks ago. Life feels pointless and has no meaning anymore. He fought bladder cancer for nearly a year but the end came so quickly and took us by surprise. I have two wonderful daughters, one granddaughter and a grandson due in September but I'm not feeling any excitement for life or the new baby coming. I try to put on a good show, I get out of bed everyday and function as I think everybody expects me too but really I can barely function at all. I was diagnosed with cervical cancer in 2013 and has a recurrence in 2015 and all I can focus on is my cancer coming back again so I can be with my husband again. I know how awful and selfish it sounds (and is) but how do I go on without my husband when I feel that there will never be any joy in my life again.
Sorry for the long post, even I can see how sorry I feel for myself when I read it but how do you go on when things feel so bleak.