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My Journey Continues

9 Jan 2015 18:17

Hi all my forum buddies.  Just wanted to post on a new thread as it is more relevant than where my journey began.  Hope to see you here. Jules

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9 Jan 2015 18:25 in response to jules54

Hello Jules I like your choice of name for your new thread I have left a text on Brians amazing Quotes again for you ,but will use this one in future ,hope you have a good win at bingo later  x...Sueanne hugs sent too x

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9 Jan 2015 19:38 in response to jules54
Hi Jules, like Sueanne, I like the title of your new thread. I'm sure you'll have many responses as we join you on your journey. Are you heading out tonight with your friend or battening down the hatches against the expected high winds? Have a peaceful weekend, much love, Jo xx

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9 Jan 2015 19:58 in response to jules54

Good evening Jules,

I also like the title of your new thread. I look forward to chatting to you on here

Take care, best wishes, Brian

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9 Jan 2015 20:45 in response to jules54

All the best to you Jules xx

like the title of the thread

Thinking about you and family

Steven 'n Anne xx

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9 Jan 2015 20:54 in response to jules54

Hi Jules,

Just wanted to check in under your new thread.  I'm glad to read (on your old thread) that your grandchildren are keeping your spirits up.  Am continuing to think of you, and I too wish that PM was sorted out.  Take care.  Hope x

 

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10 Jan 2015 06:13 in response to Hope23

Good morning Jules,

Your need to draw a line under the last thread and start a new one is completely understandable and a good idea and the title is so apt.

I did post a reply last night but unfortunately I was writing it at the same time as it was being closed off so I got an error message which I promptly blamed on this new site but an email from the moderators this morning and a helpful link explains everything. The moderators really do a great job here especially when they put up with a rant from the likes of me so, if you are reading Lucie thank you and my appologies again for venting.

To make it short I was told by my Mum that my youngest Neice, Hannah is in hospital and undergoing tests to try and find the cause of intense pain. I was initially annoyed with my sister for not telling me as she had already been in hospital 24hrs and the hospital itself is notorious for poor care so I am worried for her  especially when, at only 19yrs she is being given Morphine for the pain. When I know more I will let you know.

In the meantime I hope all of us can help you a little as you continue your journey.

Lots of love and hugs.

Garf. xx

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10 Jan 2015 09:28 in response to jules54

hi jules

i was wondering what your favourite books were

i am really into lee child i think jack reacher is very good read

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10 Jan 2015 10:22 in response to jules54

Morning Jules,

Just caught up with your "new thread" and found you under life after cancer. It's going to take a few mistakes in the future to remember and get it right, but there you go it doesn't take that many repeats to learn a new habit. 

I hope you've got your weekend planned with your family and hope they are all well. I expect part of you is running on normal habits at the moment and then coming across the change and realising things can be, may be, will have to be different in the future. A lot to get used to. Sending you a virtual hand hold whilst this is going on hun. Loads of hugs 

Annabel. xx

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10 Jan 2015 10:23 in response to GARF

Garf,

Keeping fingers crossed for your neice. let us know how she gets on.

hugs 

Annabel. xx

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10 Jan 2015 11:22 in response to GARF

Thank you so much for your kind words Garf! Where is the "blushing" smiley? Ha it's supposed to be this one but I don't think it's blushing enough: Blush

I can completely understand why you thought it was the forum playing up last night. I would have done the same as you especially as you lost your post! It must have been incredibly frustrating for you and it was bad luck you were posting right at the same time as I was locking the thread.

So sorry to hear about the news about your niece. Hopefully she feels better soon and they find out what caused this intense pain.

Lucie

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10 Jan 2015 15:42 in response to jules54

Hi Jules, I also like your new title here. I hope you are taking good care of yourself as you take this journey to a different way of life. I'm sure there are a lot of adjustments to be made before you find a comfortable niche to settle into, but you seem to have very supportive family around to help you to do that. Also, your friends on the forum are always here because as you likely know, there will be bumps and bruises along the way.    

Hugs

Lorraine

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10 Jan 2015 19:45 in response to sueanne

Hi, I am having a few technical glitches with internet when on this site - error shows 'Gateway time out' - gobblygook to me!!  Also replies freezing.  Hope you get to see this but Moderator Lucie will look into itif it continues to be bothersome.

Have had family today and chat with Church official re service requirements and am currently munching on daughter in law's home made lemon curd and poppy seed muffin (she loves to experiment and is a gret 'baker'so very happy to be guinea pig!

 

Speak again soon. Jules

 

 

 

 

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10 Jan 2015 20:43 in response to GARF

Hi Garf

Having issues with internet connection (and yes,, have paid the bill!!!!!).  Hopefully all my buddies will see this post and I just wanted to say thanks for all the continuing support - its means a lot especially with so many of you have your own troubles/journies to travel.

 

Hope you get some good news about Hannah very soon and will be thinking of you.

No win at the bingo but a very relaxing couple of hours after a very hectic week of appointments (same again next week as only have one fully free day.  May have writers cramp but making sure that all those I need to contact hear my news in the right way ~(if there is a right way to do it!!).  Had a couple of hours of retail therapy with mydaughter yesterday and today my son in law has cured my 'sticking front door' as I was in danger of being trapped indoors.  Eldest grandson has been having a laugh at my expense after we got out a load of old (and mean old) photo albums.  Wonderful memories for us all to look back on (though the photographer leaves a lot to be desired!!!).  Son's girlfriend popped in some shopping and home made muffins so think New Year's diet will have to begin in 2016 but we had a lovely chat (son was on a scuba diving course for the day).  Right had better get the washing ready as off to the launderette in the morning - will soon try and find the time to replace old one but not top of the list right now!.

 

Take care and hope you hear some good news soon.Hugs Jules x

 

 

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10 Jan 2015 20:46 in response to RAT

Have read a couple of LeeChild books a few years ago.  Enjoy Kathy Reichs, Karin Slaughter, Jo Nesbo but to be honest working in a book department tend to read the 'backs' and try anything that takes my fancy.  Have a whole pile of books sitting waiting and may now begin to work my way through them.  Strange now that TVnot on all day but I am a fan of having music on and finding that pretty relaxing at the moment.  Look after yourself. Jules

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11 Jan 2015 09:37 in response to jules54

Good morning Jules, and everyone,

Jules I really like your idea of holding off on the new year diet until 2016.  The bigwigs that we love to complain about would probably call that "blue sky thinking"!  Sorry you didn't manage a win at bingo but it has to happen eventually although I know the time spent in good company is the reason for going and it is another way for someone to give you support.

I spoke to my sister last night and Hannah is still in hospital with no sign yet of discovering what the problem is.  They have ruled out the obvious ones like appendix or gall bladder so the next thing is a CAT scan tomorrow so I don't expect to hear anything until tomorrow evening at the earliest. The hospital she is in does not have the best reputation but it is not the fault of the doctors and nurses who do an amazing job of trying to look after people in a hospital run by money men.  Apparently it's progress!

Another busy week for you and although I know it all has to be done don't wear yourself out. Sorry Jules, as soon as I typed that sentence the words "teach", "Grandma" and "suck eggs" came to mind so just ignore me.

Love and hugs.

Garf. xx

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11 Jan 2015 09:59 in response to jules54

Good morning Jules,

Glad you went out on Friday nighy but sorry you didnt get a win. I think trying to keep some normality in your life is important while so much is changing. I hope your internet connection has stabalized for I know how much it means to you to maintain contact with your forum buddies.

I didnt get to post anything at all yesterday on here as I was so busy. When I went to my meeting there was a small tree which had come down and had blocked the road until someone had dragged it alongside the road but there were small wooden debris all over the road. The meeting overan but the good thing is I was able to buy myself some chips on the way home. He gave me extra chips as he was clearing out the last of them and much to my disgust I found I couldnt eat them all. It;s very rare I wast food. Today I am trying to catch up on what I didnt do yesterday.

Its a nice morning for your Sunday morning walk allthough a bit chilly. Mrs B's shopping trolley has arrived on Friday and have put it together for her.  I told her they must have know you are a short a** as the handle is in the lowest position. I now have one ear which is pillar box red and twice as big as my other one !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have also been told I might have to end up cooking my own dinner.

Anyway, take care Jules, I am sending best wishes and big hugs your way, Brian.

 

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11 Jan 2015 10:45 in response to GARF

Morning Garf

Would never knowingly 'ignore'my forum buddies;)Wink and don't worry I still suffer from 'foot in mouth' syndrome!!!

Do hope that the scan Hannah has can throw some light on the problem she is suffering as I would imagine both she and those surrounding her are concerned. Another case of waiting to know the outcome of appointments and minds overthinking possibilities.  I know you have a lot in your head just now but do try and have a peaceful Sunday (and beyond) with Mrs G.

I have been listening to the music we have chosen for hubby's celebration of life (not for the first time!) and am now about to go out for the second time today (went to the launderette early but am saving the ironing till later). I am visiting my friend from work for a coffee and chat and as she lives within a short walk of the town centre will kill two  birds with one stone and do some essential shopping.  Have several necessary appointments to go through next week so am making the most of some me time today.

Take care my virtual buddy, chat soon.  Hugs  Jules

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11 Jan 2015 12:43 in response to jules54
Hi Jules, happy to see you are having some " me time"' oh so very important. Was going to ask you an irrelevant question about ironing but of no import. I have an iron but may as well be a doorstop,!!! Have next doors Jack Russell for 3 night so am babysitting as such. Houdini as I shall call her escaped twice in first 30 mins of visit. Now on harness and lead while outside. Mmmmm. My cat is bigger than she is but now tail wagging , think she has accepted who I am. Made my will yesterday, was a bit remiss that didn't have one till now, but want to streamline processes for the future. Hope you have something exceedingly naughty at the coffee shop like Carmel shortbread, yum. Lots of love Kathy xxx

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11 Jan 2015 13:43 in response to jules54
Hello Jules, my name is Kerrie, it was reading your story on here that I joined, the care and compassion shown by all on here I feel will help me. my mum diagnosed on 22/12/2014, with gall bladder and liver cancer, in operable. Has deteriorated so much it's just awful to watch. I am signed off work sick from today to care for her. I am so sorry to eventually read your hubby passed away, it brought emotions out in me, the wonderful support on here must surely make you feel so loved and supported, it truly has been a hard couple of years for you, I admire your strength, I wish all the best too. And to all those whose lovely posts I have read you are all amazing people. Kerrie

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11 Jan 2015 14:12 in response to jules54

Hello Jules Lovely to see that you are going out for a coffee and a chat with your friend talking at this difficult time is good for you ,but some quiet time is also important to reflect .Listening to the music over and over is exactly what I did when Tony passed away ,I new all the words ,and I even find myself singing them quietly when im out walking Rusty even now particularly our song which was an Eric Clapton song Wonderfull Tonight so Jules sing away ,I must just say I think you are an amazing lady to still be able to support others on the forum ,when going through such a difficult time yourself ,look after yourself Jules and suround yourself with the love of your family and friends ..Sending you a BIG HUG SueanneXx

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11 Jan 2015 16:21 in response to woodworm

Hi Brian

Hope the case of 'boxed ear' wears off soon and maybe you will be the one pulling the trolley when it has its maiden outing!  Just think of all the nuts it could hold.  You cannot beat shop bought chips and as I rarely make them and you have  made my mouth water am thinking a fish and chip supper is due soonWink

It was a beautiful if a little chilly start to the day and I did another trip to the launderette and have finally caught up.  I then  did a bit of tidying and set off into town where I dropped in on my friend and 'rambled' for a couple of hours before dropping into my place of work (to drop off  bereavement leave certificate so that I get paid!).  Picked up a new iron (how exciting) and new pot pourri for the hallway.  Also some flowers for the lounge as I wanted to practice the arrangement I will have on the day of the funeral indoors.  Think its important to have flowers around as I love to see colour (just a shame that hubby's favourites are out of season - dahlias) at this time of  year when the garden is mainly green and brown.

Don't overdo the 'catching up with what you missed' and hope you and MrsB have had a relaxing day.  Hugs  Jules x

 

 

 

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11 Jan 2015 16:21 in response to woodworm

Hi Brian

Hope the case of 'boxed ear' wears off soon and maybe you will be the one pulling the trolley when it has its maiden outing!  Just think of all the nuts it could hold.  You cannot beat shop bought chips and as I rarely make them and you have  made my mouth water am thinking a fish and chip supper is due soonWink

It was a beautiful if a little chilly start to the day and I did another trip to the launderette and have finally caught up.  I then  did a bit of tidying and set off into town where I dropped in on my friend and 'rambled' for a couple of hours before dropping into my place of work (to drop off  bereavement leave certificate so that I get paid!).  Picked up a new iron (how exciting) and new pot pourri for the hallway.  Also some flowers for the lounge as I wanted to practice the arrangement I will have on the day of the funeral indoors.  Think its important to have flowers around as I love to see colour (just a shame that hubby's favourites are out of season - dahlias) at this time of  year when the garden is mainly green and brown.

Don't overdo the 'catching up with what you missed' and hope you and MrsB have had a relaxing day.  Hugs  Jules x

 

 

 

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11 Jan 2015 16:40 in response to KathyS

Hi Kathy

Am sure the 'lodging' Jack Russell will find out from the cat in due course who is  boss inside the houseLaugh but can imagine its a bit of a worry when they 'do a runner' and they are not yours.  Girl at work has a Jack Russell called Milly and I know she enjoys playing hide and seek - beware ha ha.

Got new iron (but not unpacked it yet!!).  I am having to stay in tomorrow so plan on catching up with housework more then.  Just coffee whilst out but am currently enjoying another home made muffin with afternoon cuppa so still finding time to 'eat naughty'.  Must wean myself off soon otherwise will undo all the good work I managed a couple of years ago and will get told off at my next cholesterol check (now overdue and being somewhat avoided).Seeing GP this Thursday (her request as she likes to keep an eye on new widows bless her).  Have legal rep (free service from late hubby's bank) coming on Wednesday to run through things with me but think I have notified everyone and copies of death certificate (certified at time of registration) are already on the way to the organisations who asked for them.  Am wondering what I will do with my time once all the paperwork is finished? Of course, I will be pack to my part time job and am possibly thinking of joining local 'Ramblers Association (for walkers not ttalkers)- time will tell.

Hope you and the family are keeping well and that the bushfires kept their distance.  Take care  Hugs  Jules x

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11 Jan 2015 16:52 in response to Kezzaroo

Hi Kerrie

Really sorry to read the reason behind your finding this forum but from personal experience can honestly say the support/advice/kindness shown me during our long journey has probabkly got me where I am today - peaceful and relaxed at present though understandably saddened.

It is not an easy road to look after a loved one and watch then struggle with the illness but your Mum will just appreciate so much your being by her side and do ask her medical team to give you all the support you need (physically and mentally).  I know many of those who 'read' the forum posts do not always post themselves but  sometimes just 'rambling' helps the emotional side of things.  Have often typed with tears but its a natural release and we must accept it as 'normal'.  Come and chat anytime as sadly there are too many of us who will understand how you are feeling right now.  Hope your Mum can be kept comfortable during this difficult time for you all.  Virtual hugs  Jules

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11 Jan 2015 17:36 in response to Annabel

So sorry that I seem to have got answers all out of synch!

Jo,Annabel, Hope, Lorraine,Steven and Anne, thank you for your kind remarks about the new thread and for 'following me to my new 'home'.  I am, as you can imagine, finding each day a little different and there has been much to sort through.Cannot remember the last time I made/received somany phone calls, letters and necessary form filling.  Just as well that many moons ago I had secretarial skills (pre children) and they are   slowly coming back to me ha ha.  It is still amazing to think that our journey with you forum began so long ago and that I am still rambling.

Those of you still facing daily struggles I can still listen/read/respond and return the favour you have all offered me such support and virtual friendship.

Have a candle burning bright and words of comfort in my ears and will let the emotions 'rock and roll' as I remember past years.  Virtual hugs to everyone.  Jules xxx

 

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11 Jan 2015 20:46 in response to sueanne

Good evening Sueanne

Beautiful morning here (clouded over but stayed dry) and enjoyed catching up with my friend for a couple of hours.  Then went to do a bit of shopping and bought myself a lovely bunch of pussy willow, spider crysanths and purple flowers (cannot spell or pronounce name but begins with L!!!) and have had a very lazy afternoon watching sport and answering phone to friends/relatives and have just finished an hour long call with the girl I met when I was expecting My daughter (33 yrs ago)(we normally only swap Christmas cards and had a lot of bringing up to date to do.

 

Hope you have had a peaceful and relaxing day.  As I have to stay in all day tomorrow am saving the housework till then but must now have dinner or it will be ruined!!  Sending hugs.  Jules x

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12 Jan 2015 13:29 in response to jules54

Hello Jules, im so glad you enjoyed your girlie chatch up will have done you the world of good.The first days in your new life is hard having to  do so much organising and making changes but its good that many people are only to pleased help.I felt a bit like a robot going through the motions but not realy with it ,what was worse for me was driving I realised I couldnt consentrate so didnt drive for two weeks my mind was so full of Tony .Children are an amazing comfort arnt they supporting each other lots of hugs lots of tears ..I think you are so brave hubby would be so proud of you as im sure he always was .The weather is terrible rain wind Rusty and I had an early walk 7 30 ish just drizzle but enough to get us wet lots of branches down pavements in a mess but 11 degs ..The flowers sound lovelyJules  I love pussy willows too, I saw catkins out yesterday too Jules somtimes florists seem to get flowers that are out of season just a thought Take care lovely lady and BIG HUG sent ..Sueanne

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12 Jan 2015 20:50 in response to sueanne

Hi sueanne

 

I completely agree with the 'robot' feeling.  I m sure someone turned on an autopilot switch once hubby passed away but somehow all the official calls are made (for now anyway) and as donations come in for our chosen charity (in lieu of flowers) I am now turning to the 'writing letters' phase.  Have had first full day indoors today (weather was lousy anyway!) and by three o'clock all the loaned equipment had been collected.  The lounge suddenly feels a very large space with me plonked in the middle!  Has probably done me some good relaxing in between the housework and have just polished off a fish pie for dinner.

Tomorrow morning I will get back to routine visit for Mum and then am travelling into town with my daughter who has a clinic appointment (routine) but needs Zack to be 'minded' whilst she is seen so I will push him round the shops.

Both the children have suggested I join them on mini breaks in the Spring so will go back to work at beginning of February only to try and book 'holiday leave' but its good to have things to look forward to.

Am really pleased with the flowers and have chosen same colours for hubby and will wear/carry something purple at the celebration of his life (strangely we both had the same favourite colour).

Look after yourself and hope all the family are doing okay too.  Hugs  Jules x

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13 Jan 2015 00:00 in response to jules54
Hi Jules, hope you find Mum ok on your visit. Mini breaks in spring sound great, would that be April over there? The little Houdini - Jack russell I am doggy sitting has fitted in well with my 2 pets. She escaped harness and lead yesterday but fortunately came straight to me, knows who is doing the feeding now. Lots of rain here but that is good for the fires and the garden. A girlfriend brought round a lemon tree for me to plant in memory of hubby so once rain stops I will get that planted. Son came round at the weekend and did some heavy jobs for me which was much appreciated. Always a joy to spend time with him. We are so fortunate in our children. Your flowers sound lovely and purple such a vibrant colour. Mother in law still in hosp since 28/11 awaiting care package vacancy to come up to allow her home. Her spirits have improved and her walking is good, has pitting oedema and legs still leaking so I presume nurses will need to make home visits to change dressings. Take care precious angel, lots of love Kathy xxx