He was diagnosed 11 months ago and at that point it was stage 2 with a Gleason score of 8. His PSA was over 280 upon diagnosis.
Two weeks ago his PSA was 2.9, prior (one month ago)it was 2.5. The cancer had spread to his pelvis, femoral bones, base of skull and one lymph node. Two rounds of radiation killed most of the bone metastasis as well as a 2x3 inch secondary growth that formed in a 3 month period leaving a large hole on his pelvis after obliterating this tumor.
Doctors stated from the beginning that removing the prostate was not a possibility. Because of the size of this gland, he can’t sit for more than 5 minutes without severe pain.
He has become very aloof and absorbing himself in movies on his cell phone while on the couch. He denies being depressed. His appetite is poor; often suffering from GI upset and looks frail. He does function a small portion of the time and is able to drive himself to mail packages for our business.
I feel very alone and devastated by his decline and often flat affect. Although I have emotional support from my friends and family, I feel that I have lost my husband of 25 years and a stranger lives inside of him. I am a very compassionate person as well as a registered nurse and I cater to him often. I just wish he would open up and make the time that we have left together actually being together and not in his own little world and often snapping at me for trying to converse with him.
