A week ago my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer it’s spread to his bones, legs, chest and lymph nodes. We are awaiting to see if he will be offered chemo but have been told not to get our hopes up as it’s a very aggressive cancer. I literally feel like my worlds falling apart he’s the only person I have. I go from uncontrollable grief to uncontrollable anger. He went to the doctors for months complaining he couldn’t swallow he lost 6 stone in 11 weeks. They gave him food milk shakes and sent him away fast forward 1 week from last seeing the doctor and I found him nearly conscious and severely dehydrated as he couldn’t swallow even water. The ambulance driver accused him of wasting their time and wanted to know what he wanted them to do!!! He already had a flag on his records to say his esophagus has changes and was at risk, despite this they still sent him away. I can’t help but think it’s their fault all his symptoms pointed to cancer but they did nothing. I am taking legal action against them but this offers little to no comfort. I can’t cope I’ve have no one to talk to all my partner says is everyone dies eventually, keep strong!! Well in all honesty I don’t want to keep strong I want to die with him. I can’t watch him suffer and be in so much pain. I feel like I’m dying inside I can’t eat, sleep or even think clearly. All I can think of over and over is if that doctor had pulled his finger out they could have saved my dad. I just don’t think I can get over this, I can’t just carry on it’s a constant pain like no other I’ve ever felt before.
