Hello Jade.  Welcome - I am so pleased that you have come to talk to us.  This would be a dreadful situation for anyone to face at any age and I cannot really imagine how it must be for you.  And of course there are no magic wands to put things right but I am going to try to suggest some things that I hope may lighten the load.  First things first:  I am posting a link to riprap, an organisation for youne people who have a parent suffering from cancer.  I think you will find it helpful, you can talk to others in a similar situation and find a lot of information.

http://www.riprap.org.uk/

I am also sending you a link which might explain why your dad may be angry.

www.cancerresearchuk.org/.../guilt-blame-anger

I am sorry that things have broken down with your mum.   Do  you have aunts and uncles, cousins, anyone who can give practical help?  I hesitate to ask in what is clearly a difficult situation but in the circumstances you may find it practical to regain some contact with your mum who should be giving you support at this appalling time.  Please tell your college tutor what is happening at home so s/he will understand that you are having a difficult time.

Also I have no idea of the nature of the care your dad is receiving.  You should not be having to carry this and I very much hope that you are getting help.  You might find it useful to contact MacMillan Cancer Support (Freefone 0808 808 0000) a charity who will help anyone affected by cancer; they will know what help you need and  hopefully where to get it. I realise I am saying "look at this website" "ring this organisation" but I honestly think it is worth investigating any anyone who can help you.

I hope these suggestions will be just a beginning of finding some support and help for yourself (please look after yourself).  I also hope you will come back to us and tell us how things are going.  It can help justy to write down your feelings and we will always be here to listen and try to  help.  Annie

Good evening Jade

 I have a daughter called Jade.   Lovely name , don’t you think?

im quite a lot older than you, I’m 56.   My dad is dying of cancer too, lung and pancreatic   He was given 6 months to live 6 months ago. He is , I feel , going through his final stages.   Although still at home with my mum. God knows how she copes!?!?

  About you, I have been luck to spend so long with my dad.  Your so young,  

 The best I can honestly say is treat every day as a blessing.  Even if you have a fall out, then make time to make up....  focus on the little things.   It really is the little things that matter.    Take time to listen.  Sometimes what older people say to you, no matter how much you love them mean nothing, then years later there words come back to you in relevant circumstances ,   So do listen , and remember , you will be glad that you did

play chess,  if you can’t , learn, learn with your dad.  It’s a quiet game.  And is honestly a meeting of minds.   You will understand what I mean if you play, or lean to play. It will give you , for the time your playing something else to focus upon, without words...

take care 

chris