A few years ago my Dad was told he had cancer that had no known treatments for. He experimented with different treatments and they would work on and off again, he also had several surgeries.
Earlier this year after having a few near death experiences he was told that he was in remission and he actually got to go back to work and start driving again. However not long after he was hospitalized.
He came home for a while but was sent back in soon after. This time he was unable to eat or drink whatsoever and they told us he hadn’t long left. They were able to feed him artificially and this was going well for a month or so until a few days ago. He is unable to walk and he is asleep during most of the day. They have stopped feeding him and they said that he should pass in the next few days.
I am only a teenager and I am finding it hard to cope. I’m unable to sleep and I feel guilty for not spending as much time as possible with him and when I am with him I don’t know what to say because I don’t want to upset him.
I’m terrified of life without him, he is one of the few people that truly believe in me. I am scared that he will be forgotten as he is the most unbelievably intelligent and inspiring person in my life and I want him to be honored. I really want him to know how I feel about him and how much I care but I cannot talk to him without crying and thus making him upset.
