I'm sorry to read about you friend it's so sad I know exactly what you going though right now so many questions going around in head the shock of it all .it doesn't seem really only thing I can say just spend as much time with you friend as you can she will need you more now . I never hated anything in life until my mother had cancer I hate it cancer taken so many of our loved ones it's not fair .my mother bowel cancer inoperable no treatment nothing we don't know how long she got I think my mother don't want to know it's so hard .I hope you friend and you got support from family and friends you need each other at time like this . take care :( 

There's no words.  I can otherwise be a shoulder to cry in as you've been for me.  It's not fair.  It's just not fair.  I go through stages of utter disbelief to can't stop crying  to fury.  It's just not fair.  I spoke to a friend at work who lost her mom,  she said she couldn't believe how the person who has the cancer has such resolve unlike those around them.  At the end of the day your right we both got to be strong, we got to be strong for them.  Even when it's so hard for us.  We come second,  how we feel to some point.  One day at a time.  All we can do.  Thinkin of you.  And will be now as I'm struggling along xxxx

That all I done today is cry I got one of them bad days I been reading different post on here and it's hit me for six there so many on here have lost someone to cancer it's so sad life is un fair . At the moment I'm in that stage thinking and having bad dreams I wish I had off button on my brain so I can switch it off from thinking . Anytime you need chat I'm here take care x 

So sorry to hear about your friend leanne cancer really doesnt care about age. Lost my sister 3 weeks ago really terrible time she was only 35. 3 weeks on im taking it hour my hour. Just be there for her and spend as much time as you can together. We never discussed cancer or dying with my sister just acted normal and laughed and watched TV Together. Trying to think of happy memories now its really difficult at times

Take care x

I can't sleep,  I can't settle at all.  I'm surrounded by reminders that hurt to look at but at the same time comfort me.  I've read postd to on here.  Scares me but also eases me to see I'm not the only one feeling this way.  I feel sick to the stomach worried,  I've lost my appetite,  I only eat for the sake of not falling down now,  I teach secondary school kids.  I'm standing there trying not to fall apart.  They'll think I'm on crack by the end of the week... I need a switch off button. Just to sleep.  Just a white page to dream of,  nothing else.  I'm sitting in the livingtoom looking at the wall.  I never knew it was that interesting... I'm dreading seeing her,  fear of breaking down,  crying,  not being g brave enough,  upsetting her.  I've put that much foundation on tonight,  I'd give Robin williams a run for his money in Mrs doubtfire.  I've got to use that sense humour with her,  make her laugh,  make memories.  You take care.  Off now to visit Karen at the hospital x

Yeah put on yout brave face!! we did that alot we never showed how scared we were of loosing her. Thankyou for your kind words .. this forum has helped me so much theres alot of good people on here and u dont realise how many people are going through this terrible thing. My sister was so brave a lovely person inside and out we will never ever get over this just hopefully try to live with it. Ive had a bad day today just listening to people talk about christmas and plans they have when im dreading it and feeling so angry my sister has gone. Im here any time you need to chat. 

Take care x

Just got back. I sat there listening to her tell me about her funeral plans.  We've gone from discussing nail varnish to funeral plans in the blind of an eye.  After that I'm trying to drag my beaten soul from the floor and smile.  She tell me,  me of all people I'm doing so well as the tears start to fall.  We both live Xmas,  it's our favourite time of year.  She always buys severe year one special Xmas tree decoration,  she has a lot now,  she tells me,  she wants me to choose what u want from them with her daughter and husband. Ithete her pride and joy.  I want to cry harder.  We talk about how truly *** I am,  that I thought we had more time,  so did she.  We've been the truest of friends,  never argued,  been dead honest no matter what.  Even now nothing has changed.  I have sisters and even though she isn't blood related she is like one.  Should anyone ever get over losing such an amazing person like your sister,  no,  do they come to accept the situation in time yes.  My mom lost my brother at Christmas,  I wasn't born then he was 2and a half she came to accept the situation but will never get over it. Karen said to me,  leanne,  I get a chance to say goodbye,  others don't.  Does this make me feel better about losing her no,  but least we know when I suppose. Still I hate it all.  Im still *** at the Dr's and hospital etc I can't help it.  I just don't want her to go.. 

Hi. So sorry to hear such sad news. I know exactly what you're going through as my best friend passed away from breast cancer 4 yrs ago. 

I was with her on the day she was told she had cancer right through til the end. She fought the cancer for five years and was so brave. We still laughed together, even through her chemo treatment, as that's what she wanted. She wanted everyone to be normal around her and loved to laugh. Even through those tough times. 

I miss her very much and was like you at the time, dreading what was to come and how would I go on without my best friend by my side. 

But you do. .It's hard at first but you will get there. Step by step .. 

I am now going through this again with my dad. Who  was diagnosed with lung cancer six weeks ago. It's heartbreaking. 

Love to you and take care xx

HI Leanne what close friendship you both got . hope you ok take care sending you big hugs to you all at this sad time .