Hi, I am Dan, I am new to this forum. I have a sarcomatoid carcinoma and I blog and vlog about it extensively, actually daily it seems to have changed into a full time job now even though I am sick.
I have never been sad about the cancer and the prospect of dying, but I am closer to the D word than ever and I don't mean in the rude sense!
I have had over 6 reccurances now, metastasis all over my back and chest and I am just a bit run down.
Now for the problem, I have started to find that my aggression levels are through the roof. The mixture of stress, pain and worry have made me into some kind of hardcore nasty dude! I don't like it as I am ripping people apart for no reason, I even know I am doing it.
I tried to explain it the other day like I am being strangled by someone, that someone being the cancer and its either kill or be killed. I also feel like that with people who stress me out, I have no time for them now, I have litterally lost the ability to empathise with people who cause me stress, it's like they are messing with my karma.
I sound aweful don't I but I am just trying to explain it correctly, which I don't think I am.
I am just wondering if anyone else has had these symptoms, worries and concerns. Usually when stressed I take my dog for a walk but just had surgery again so not that easy.
If you want to know more about my diagnosis or see whats happened check out my blog or vlog.