Hi all. Just needing a bit of support.
Around 5 weeks ago, my 74 yr old mum was diagnosed with advanced pancreatic cancer. A massive shock, as she’d previously been fit and well and only recently had quite vague symptoms.
Due to an infection, she has been unfit for any palliative chemo and is now in the local hospice, where I visit her every day for much of the day.
Its now at the point where she’s lost weight, isn’t eating and is sleeping most of the day. I feel totally and utterly devastated and can barely stand to look at her wasting away. I spend lots of time in the relatives room crying.
I’m a 38 year old an only child with no father (already deceased) and it is breaking my heart to face her in the bed every day. Though obviously I want to be by her side.
She is disappearing before my eyes and I don’t know how I can face another day.
How the hell am I supposed to cope?
i have supportive friends and some extended family, but it’s the seeing her getting thinner and more helpless that is tearing me apart.
i love her so much.