I am so proud of my mum the way she is coping.  Me I'm the drama queen and just finding it so difficult to cope I am crying whilst typing this and at work just doing the mindless tasks that do not need thinking about.

For 6 months mum kept going to the docs with water infections and antibiotics, finally sent to the hospital who diagnosed bladder cancer.  Went for the results on Tuesday, thinking everying be okay, to hear the Consultant say she does not have any choices but one an RC and if she doesnt she will die.  Was told that she is in the 5% of the population that gets this rare agressive cancer that nothing will work on so the only choice is this.

Mum is a health 75 year old and said she is dealing with this each day as it comes.  Me I look at her and cannot stop thinking what am I going to do without her (even at my ripe old age of 56).

I have read and read all the posts but I am finding it so difficult to think of any positive outcomes of this.  She had CLL and was finally told she was in remission in January and then to have this.

Thanks for listening.