Hi I'm new to this forum, I hope I'm posting in the correct place, my mind isn't quite working as it should .

My mum has two cancers; melanoma and lung cancer. The lung cancer was only discovered when they were doing a body scan just after the melanoma diagnosis. She was diagnosed about 18 months ago . 

Shes tried immunotherapy but it made her lung cancer grow! So it was stopped. She's had lots of treatments/ operations, but the last appointment the dr gave mum two choices, one to watch what the cancer does ( she now has a tumour in her chest and lymph nodes in her shoulder and her lungs ) they do nt know which cancer these tumours are-  or she can try to fight it, with a very slim chance that immune therapy will work this time. But if it doesn't the oncologist has said she will have 6-9 months left. 

Mum is in complete denial ( which I know is quite common) and this has been her coping strategy the whole time. I on the other hand have learnt as much as I can about her cancers and attend the appointments with her, asking questions, making suggestions etc. But this news has hit me like a ton of bricks! I've always tried to stay positive but I'm struggling now. I'm very tearful, I have a fuzzy head and I feel ' distanced 'from people. I'm forcing myself to go to work, and to try and socialise as I'm afraid I'm becoming depressed and I know that this will make it difficult for me look after mum. I'm sitting in my bedroom because I'm finding everything overwhelming and just need to be on my own. My husband is so supportive and I've got some great friends, it doesn't help. It's the pain inside me that no one can see. I feel on my own with it. 

Mum on the other hand is doing well as she can't remember what the oncologist said to her- and doesn't want to know. So I don't have to worry about her in that respect. Any advice would be appreciated x