Hi, I'm jen. Im 29 and my mum was diagnosed with a very rare lung cancer in october. Since then things have gone down hill pretty fast.
She's been in&out hospital with her asthma&severe cellulitis. Her oncologist has started her on a targeted therapy pill daily. She seems to be doing well on it so far. But she's been in denial up until we saw her oncologist again on Wednesday, where he told her she was terminal.
I don't know how much time we have left but I'm really struggling with the thought I'm going to lose her. I'm so paranoid that I'm constantly checking she's still breathing when she's asleep. I'm physically&emotionally drained. Im trying to run two houses, care for her, care for my 7yr old son. Its got to the point where I'm that stressed my heart actually hurts&my dr has had to prescribe me medication to help with the pain in my chest.
The cancer has spread to her brain which has caused a personality change&she can be very aggressive towards me. Its awful watching my mum suffer&her being mean to me. Knowing its not really my mum, Its the cancer doing it. She is only 53&i always thought I'd have her until she was old. I feel like I'm being robbed. She keeps telling me she just wanted to see my son grow up&it's so hard to be strong when she says that.
I know that this will probably be our last Xmas too because her cancer is so rare&aggressive. Its so hard to be festive when my world is falling apart. I don't know how im going to make it through Xmas day. So I thought I would reach out on here for some support or if anyone has ideas on what I can do to help cope.
Thanks