I really don't know what to say but I think I really need to just let it out. My mum has recently been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. But it started when I was 11. My mum is a single mother so if she went into hospital it was either me looking after my sister or family relatives coming over. After a few surgeries we thought it went away. That's when she had a relaps and had to go through chemo. It stared to get harder and harder with things. I was too affraid to leave her alone when I went to school, sometimes I couldn't even face going. I couldn't pretend I was okay and smile when all I wanted to do was cry. I'm now 18 and In collage and it's still the same feeling. I don't know how to cope with this. The thought of my mum dying is just too much for me. She raised me all by her self and she is literally the world to me. I can't seem to carry on with my life. It's like I'm constantly depressed, like my brain won't let me forget that my mum in dying. As of right now she is in a hospice and has been for 2 weeks. I've now become so emotional. I never used to be but now I find myself crying at almost everything. I just want to know how to cope with this cos I know I'm not doing it right. I want to be able to go to collage, not feel empty all the time and get in with my 18 year old life.
