3rd mri scan today...terrified not slept all night. Not sure how ginger to cope with the cannula..needle phobia already causing palpitations just thinking..or trying not to think about it. Scan will not only show a different angle on the tumour due to be removed but is of my spine,,90 minutes to see if the tumour on my brain stem has spread.  Then Monday see the surgeon oncologist as well as my usual haem onc.....am usually seeing the glass as 1/2 full but starting to feel that l my not going to survive this ...not sure how much more I can take and having to put my poor long suffering family through any more

midnight fish