Hi all, just wanted to share the absolute surreal crapfest this week has been.

Went to my local gp to check on a lump ( leftover from mastitis during breastfeeding years ago) on 12th Nov as it felt a little different to normal.  Gp not unduly worried, said it was probably still a cyst but would refer me to breast clinic as hosp to be on the safe side.  Have done this before 5 yrs ago and all clear so expecting more of the same.

2 weeks later had appt at breast clinic,they confirmed there and then the original cyst was exactly that and was of no concern. BUT, started to go a bit pear shaped after mammograms, ultrasound then a couple of biopsies - but on the other boob,   Was asked to come down a week later for results.

Went on Tues this week and consultant confirmed its stage 1.  Consultant offered me a treatment plan straight away - date of 23rd for a lumpectomy, they will also remove some lymph nodes but she thinks they all seem fine and needs to be doubly sure.  6 weeks after the op it will be a few weeks of daily radiotherapy, then few years of cancer suppressing medication.

To be perfectly honest it still seems like an out-of-body experience, bizarre and surreal, and I after the day of diagnosis when I was a mess, I have been like robocop organising and sorting everything.  What I am struggling to deal with is how quickly this has happened, last month (and even now) I still feel absolutely fine, then all of a sudden I am told ive got cancer and bam! Here is your treatment plan.  In one way I am so damned grateful that my consultant is so efficient and organised everything before telling me the diagnosis, but I am angry with myself as I regularly checked myself (mum had bc) and felt nothing wrong in my other boob - even now I have tried to find it and there is nothing there!

So sorry for my ramble, just cannot believe this is happening to me.  Life is such a ***** sometimes.