I lost my mother to cancer in November, seven months after diagnosis.
She had been making strides with her chemo but she caught an infection whilst in hospital which led to pneumonia and the doctors went from saying she'll be home in a couple of days to saying she's dying. She had been eating, laughing and saying she can't wait to come home and sleep in her own bed and her bloodwork was great and then the next day she was so out of it on pain relief she didn't know who I was.
I was just getting my head around the fact that my mother had cancer and, suddenly she's gone. I'm the youngest of four and I live at home and worked with my mum. I miss her terribly. The grief is setting in more and more in the last week. I can't talk or think about her awful death and the last seven months without projectile vomiting and getting into a state. I can't even leave the house at the moment, I'm anxious about everything. I've had nothing but reccurent infections and illnesses since my mum died and but I am making a concious effort to eat and to eat healthy because I don't want to keep getting sick.
How do I cope? How do I overcome the anxiety? and how do i stop myself vomiting all the time?
