Hey everyone,

I lost my mum to cancer a couple months ago and ever since then I just feel so empty and broken inside. She was the most beautiful and caring person I have ever had in my life. Since I moved away from the country where I was born when I was younger I only ever had my mum, dad and little sister as my closest family. My dad works fly in fly out so it was basically my mum and my sister that I spent the most time with. My mum was always there for me and my sister for whatever we needed and she was always so proud of us. She loved us so much and now that she is not here I feel like I have no one. My little sister is often upset and I don't know what to tell her to make her feel better because I know saying it's ok is not going to help and I don't want to lie to her either. My dad still works fly in and fly out to try and pay our bills and when he is not here its just me and my sister at home. We are trying to get our grandma to fly over to stay with us if she gets a visa.

When I am upset i go on my phone and re read the texts between me and my mum. This makes me happy because I can hear her voice in my head but it also makes me upset that she will never text me or call me ever again. I have tried talking to psychologists about my situation but none of them seem to help instead they just make the matter worse. I feel like there is no point talking about/explaining your pain to someone if they will never understand it. I guess thats why I came to post to this forum because people will at least have some sort of understanding of what I'm going through.

Thanks for taking the time to read and if you have any input or things that have worked for you please tell me.