my mam was disnoised with a water infection for 2 and half year. march 2018 my mam got told she had blader cancer and there was nothing they could do. why im i so angry why do i feel like my mam died at 51 due to lazyness and just not checking people out. she was getting amoxicillin on repeat for 2 years. do i have the right to be angry or is easy to miss this or am i just looking for someone to blame!