Hello
I am just looking to vent my anxiety.
Back in April 2012 I was diagnosed with grade 3 DCIS. I decided on a bilateral mastectomy and then had reconstruction in 2015.
But last Thursday I found a lump! In the opposite breast to the last lump. It's right under the DIEP flap scar line. Went to the doctors today and as expected the doctor can feel the lump I found but as there are so many variables and given my history she has referred me under the two week rule.
There are so many things going through my mind and things that I have read.
Could it be blocked lymph node, lymph node cancer, fat necrosis, scar tissue, secondary cancer, a new cancer
I can't help but think the worse and have gone into melt down, booked a solicitor to up date my will. Arranged for my daughter to go and live with her father etc etc. My daughter is 8 and already lost her grandfather to pancreatic cancer, watched me have all my previous surgeries and treatment at the age of two, suffer mine and her dads divorce, accept my new partner.
I also lost a baby I was told I'd never have two weeks ago.
I don't know what to think, feel or talk to. My new partner has been through so much with me already as has my daughter.