Hi Broxibabe85,

So sorry for your loss, my mum passed away also in September, it is hard and you're right, it is difficult to put into words how much you miss them. I find it is a day at a time and some are ok,others just bl**dy awful. We have no choice but to go on and live the gift that is life. My mum, your dad, they wouldn't want us to hold onto to the sadness and although I won't get over my mum's death, I will get to the stage of acceptance, I'm not there yet, just put up our Christmas tree and I thought...this time last year....., the milestones and 'firsts' will be especially hard. 

There are no magic words that I can say to you that will make the sorrow go away and we will each deal with it differently but that's ok, there is no 'normal way', just your own way. I 'speak' to my mum everyday and talk about her to others, tell them how wonderful she was, sounds silly really but I want to speak out loud about her, she's still part of our lives, just in spirit, but still there.

I am also sorry to hear that you suffer from mental health issues; I very much hope that you are able to get support and that  you don't have to struggle on your own.

The days will get easier and memories will be happier ones, not just of the last days.

Take care.