Lost my granddaughter today ...

My amazing beautiful bravest of the brave granddaughter lost her battle to acute myeloid leukaemia today ... she's just 18 .. in January we were all going on the holiday of a lifetime to see mickey mouse in Florida... 2 days before she was taken sick and rushed up to London cancer hospital where instead of mickey mouse,  she had chemo and radio and a stem cell transplant .. 

All was looking hopeful she even had her 18th birthday in the middle of it in the hospital .. because of covid only her mum and dad were allowed to visit .. I couldn't even give her a cuddle in these last month's..

She lost her beautiful hair and still smiled through everything ... we thought she'd got it on the run .. but no ... it had come back with a vengeance... my amazing daughter in law was her rock .. and mine when I went through my breast cancer... now she's lost her daughter, who is just starting out in life ... all our hearts are broken ... 

I've been on here 3 years now, trying to help along the way .. this year we've lost a niece to cystic fibrosis... my sister to dementure now the crulest blow of all .. so Jess if your up there listening, know you were so loved ... you deffinatly earned your wings ... and to cancer ... you suck big time ...  Chrissie  

  • So so sorry to hear this Chrissie. There's a new Angel, but how heartbreaking for you all to lose your beautiful Jess.

    There are no words that I can find to match those you give to comfort others. I don't have your magic touch with words like that.

    Sending you a big virtual hug. Heartfelt condolences...

    Sunny xx

    Leukaemia took my friend age 11. So young, so beautiful. Multiple relatives also lost to cancer.

    Cancer definitely sucks. 

  • Hi chrissie. 

    I'm so so sorry for your loss, you know I'm not very good with words, your always alot better at expressing them than me. Like now my mind is blank, 

    But you'll know what I'm thinking about cancer without words, and you know thares plenty of people will be very sad and thinking of you. So sorry just can't get the words out. 

    We all thought she was winning her battle. 

    Love and hugs Billy xxxxxxx 

  • My condolences Chrissie.

     

    May she rest in peace.

     

     

     

    Best Regards

    Taff

  • Hello Chriss,

                      just to say l would echo Taffs cpmment and add that l hope you can find peace amongst all this distress,

                         best wishes,

     

                                                David

  • Thank you so much for all your heart felt words ... they mean more then you know ....  and for my Jess.. 

     

    I'm sending a dove to heaven  with a parcel on it's wings ....    be careful when you open it , it's full of beautiful things ... 

    Inside is a million kisses , wrapped up in a million hugs .... to say how much well miss you ... and to send you all our love ....

    Now we hold you close within our hearts and there you will remain .... to walk with us throughout our lives .... untill we meet again ... 

  • Oh Chrissie, I'm so sad for you and your family. To lose someone so young to this dreadful disease is heartbreaking. 

    You help so many on this forum with your advice and kind words. I wish peace to you and your family  xx

  • Oh Chrissie, I’ve only just seen your post and my heart is breaking for you. This is unbelievably cruel for you all to bear. You are so kind on here with all your help and support, and I hope you find some comfort in knowing that we are thinking of you and sending thoughts of love, peace and comfort for you and your family. Sending soft hugs to you, and deep sympathy for your awful loss. xxx

  • Hi Chrissie,

    I just wanted to post to say I'm so very sorry to hear your news and I wanted to send our deepest condolences from all of us here at Cancer Chat.

    You've received a lot of lovely words from people on here, which is testament to you and what you give to everyone on this forum, and we very much echo these words too and want to offer our support to you at this awful time.

    Sending thoughts and best wishes to you and your family from all of us,

    Ben

  • Thank you Ben....

    From the bottom of my heart ... the wonderful people we have on here, including moderators and nurses ..  to those who stay on here, holding a hand out to others ... this site has been a life saver in many ways over my journey and now the unthinkable, loosing a granddaughter...

    So to all of you who reached out to me.... your all amazing vertual friends ... and vertual hugs are most welcome seeing a real hug from people is not allowed... the one thing that was so crule, was not being allowed to hug Jess... but she was then having chemo ... and wer a very huggy family ...

    You are all hero's... here's to kicking cancers butt ... 

    Vertual hug to you all .... Chrissie  

  • You find such beautiful words even in the heart of grief. Such lovely words for your Angel. So much love magnified by you. No real hugs allowed for Jess during chemo, yes so cruel. 

    You sent so many virtual ones your Angel got them, I'm sure wrapped full of love. 

    Take care, more virtual hugs from me. As you say, we all got to keep kicking cancer's butt!

    Sunny xx