Oh ibs,  so sorry, even those words don't come near ... cancer doesn't care who it takes, young or old, any race, kind ... it has no compation ... 

I read once, when I'd lost someone close ... some people come into our lives, to give us a lesson ... to change your life .. they may stay for a day, a week, or a year. . But they leave you a gift of love ... they just can't stay ... but it's up to us to take that lesson, or not ... but if you do, you will understand later why they touched your life for a time ...

I know you feel raw and the pain is overwhelming,  but that's the price we pay to have been blessed to have had them in our life ...   please just stay in the 'today' just one day at a time ... and those feelings ... lost ... angry ... wanting to scream that life sucks, is part of that grief ... now she lives in your heart ... 

Lots of us on here, don't know what tomorrow may bring ... but we know cancer lives on our shoulder .. we really understand this journey we find our selfs on ... sending you a big vertual hug .. Chrissie x

I am so sorry about your loss.  I would like to echo what Chriss has said; there is no immediate cure for grief but you should continue to remember what your relationship has brought to you; if it helps you then talk (either in your mind or out loud) to your partner and think what she would be saying to you.  It sounds as though she has taught you a lot and you can maintain her influence even though it is painful.  One day - honestly - the pain will slowly begin to fade but not yet; try to ensure that you continue to gain from this wonderful relationship.  If you want to talk more about how you are doing then we are always happy to talk with you.  I have lost people I loved but their influence has not faded - I still try to maintain the good things I have learned and will not forget the people I have loved.  Annie

I am so so sorry for your loss, she sounds like she was an absolutely amazing woman and a blessing to have in your life and has helped you so much

i feel your pain, my Grandad was my best friend and pushed me to do my best and helped me get out of all my bad habits 

I’m sorry, I’m so new to this I really am unsure what else to say, my thoughts are with you 

shan