Hi, 

Not really sure what to say except iv lost both my parents to lung cancer in the last 4 years...22 months apart.  Dad over 8 months and mum over 6 weeks....no one understands the emptiness I feel day in day out...both deaths were very sudden and slightly unexpected...dad dropped down dead in the house after chemo damaged his heart. Mum was in a hospice but went to the toilet one minute then literally 10 minutes later she was gone...i have flash backs to these times daily as I saw them both...i am full of regret wishing those 2 days I did differently...i am so lost without them both but more so my mum. They were both only 66...i keep asking myself why lightening struck twice...i feel like an orphan with nowhere to turn...parents love you unconditionally, no matter what...no one else in the world can love you like they can...cant really explain it properly to people that don't understand. Maybe hoping that someone in here might. Thanks for reading and your time. Much love xxx