Hello pinky13, 

I am  so sorry for your loss - how devastating that your dad died so suddently and how touching that he had put Easter eggs on your doorstep just before. It must have been such a traumatic evening, an evening when it sounds like you had to sort everything out and since then you have had to deal with so many other issues and have had to protect your daughter. As you said with all that happening and you having to be there and keep on top of everything, it sounds like you haven't really had time to yourself to grieve properly. 

There is information on this page on Coping with Grief which will highlight the complex emotions involved in the grieving process. It might be worth getting in touch with your GP and mentioning that you are struggling to cope at the moment. I am sure your doctor will have some excellent suggestions for you to help you get through this difficult time. I hope that you have supportive friends and family around you and that you will also meet others here who have been through this before and that they will come and share their story with you.  We're all here for you anytime you need to chat.

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

thank u so much Lucie for your reply to be honest I don't know how to cope with it i feel like im just going through motions in life I'm drinking too much to not feel anything