Hello, im Gill and new on the forum. I find every day still very hard to get on with life, I lost my mum to lung cancer 2 and a half years ago and then my grandad two months later. Life seems so hard especially as I lost my dad 8 years ago to heart problems so have no family left and im only 35. I know there are others who have lost people very close at a young age but I just don't know how to cope. There hasn't been a minute go by that I don't think of them all. At christmas, birthdays and 'their days' I just want to hibernate and hide as it hurts. I just want to enjoy life and be how I was. I was the main carer for my dad as mum had to work and so it was so so hard to go through it again when mum was diagnosed. I have never cried so much x x x x I miss them all so much x x x