I lost my mum earlier this year to cancer, she was my best friend and the sunshine of my life and even though I feel that I am coping better than I thought I would I also can’t comprehend how I can live my life without her.
She was the strongest most amazing woman in the whole entire world, even the nurses at the hospice would call her Joy instead of her real name because she was so friendly and kind to them even at the end.
I feel very alone, I have a great family, friends and boyfriend but I hate to be a burden to anyone by talking about what’s happening and I can’t talk to dad about it because I want to support him and not put anymore emotional strain on him.
I don’t think reality has truly set in yet that this has happened and she is gone, I’m worried that one day I will snap and realise she is never coming back. I know I am strong and I will get through it but I can’t help feeling very along and that the only thing that will make it better is having mum back. I just wish I could hear her voice and she could tell me what to do.