Hi, I am new to this forum and for the first time in my life I suddenly feel the need to "off load"
I was diagnosed with multiple myeloma in 2010 aged 48. Since that time I have suffered a number of tumors requiring many rounds of radiotherapy, chemotherapy, surgery, stem cell transplant etc. just to keep me on my toes I also suffered a subarachnoid hemorrhage in 2013. I was able to continue the career I enjoyed, until 2014, when unfortunately I was forced to retire due to continued ill health. During this time I have also suffered many serious infections, sepsis etc. and have spent many nights in hospital. I am sure there are many of you who will recognise just how tough Cancer can be.
Not really sure why I am feeling so low, I have a wonderful family, married to the woman of my dreams for the past 35 years, I have two lovely daughters who I have walked down the aisle and whom have given my 3 beautiful granddaughters in the past 2 1/2 years. Fortunately I am financially secure and have always valued my independence and self reliance. 3 weeks ago I underwent back surgery which has significantly reduced my pain and enabled me to walk unaided for the first time in 3 years.
Why then is my mood so low, why can't I seem to recover my positive attitude. I am so fortunate to have been able to fight this disease so so long, I have so much to look forward to and enjoy the love of my family however the myeloma seems to be winning and for the first time since I was diagnosed I feel unable to fight back.
if anyone has any ideas on how to get my mojo back I would be delighted to hear from you.