Hi Michelle 28 I’m sorry 2 read about mum . I can’t give any advice because my mother passed away 2/8/17 she had bowel cancer it didn’t hit me until after the funeral I think I was walking around in different world like it wasn’t happening . But now I’m total reck I just miss her so much  nothing seem real until I go up cemetery then it real if that makes sense. It’s so hard 2 explain how I’m feeling I 2 haven flash backs I can be anywhere and I’m seening everything what happened 2 my mother it’s not in my head I really can see what my mother went through I know this don’t make sense. My partner do say 2 me where u been because I drifts off I’m realiving what happen all time :( sorry 4 rambling it’s so hard in it take care x 

Hi Michelle28, I am so very sorry for your loss and your pain.

I lost my mum in October last year from lung cancer. I felt numb, and still do some days, lots of anger, and at the moment a huge sadness. I would describe grief as emotional chaos...

Like you, My Mum has left a huge gap in my life. The feeling of isolation can be unbearable even when there are people around me. Talking about it here has made a difference to me as I'm not great at expressing my feelings and I feel I can offload when it gets too much without feeling guilty. 

Thinking of you and sending you hugs.

Xxx