Yes, very normal to have up days and down days.
I was very open with my friends about my diagnosis but that comes with a price - everyone is always texting to see how you’re doing and some days you just don’t want to talk about it, you just want to keep yourself to yourself. Other days I could speak freely and even make “quips” (at my own expense). And all the time I just felt like “bring it on, let’s get it over with and then I can get back to normal”. The new normal, of course.
The waiting is a total drag - 9 weeks for me, from finding “it” to the op, but looking back those weeks did just slip past - I feel like I lost a whole chunk of the summer this year!
Anyway I’m rambling .... my advice: be very kind to yourself, allow yourself to have up and down days but keep strong. Eat nice food, have treats, see friends (only the good ones!) oh and REALLY important - get outside into nature every day with your daughter - park, garden, countryside, seaside, whatever you have handy. Keep busy. Be organised. Make plans for when you have your op. Fill your freezer with lovely, easy food, put clean sheets on your bed the day before you go in.
You can beat this - you know? Xx