Hi all. I don't normally post to forums but my family have all fallen asleep and I am feeling scared. I have one little boy aged 5 and have recently given birth to another gorgeous boy who is coming up to 5 months. After the birth of my second boy, I had trouble latching him onto my breasts for breastfeeding (he has posterior tongue tie). With much struggling I managed to get him feeding from my left side but he was always reluctant to feed from my right. I persevered but when he was 5 weeks I had mastisis in my right side. After antibiotics for 3 weeks and much going back and forth to the doctors, I was eventually referred to the ready clinic for further tests. After an ultrasound they found nothing apart from a breastfeeding related abcess. I was kept in the antibiotics and told that it would eventually clear up. I was however booked in for a follow up appointment and thank God I was. I had another ultrasound and this again showed nothing but a normal breastfeeding abcess. The consultant however wanted to double check just to be sure and did a core biopsy. I was told that this was just as a precaution and that they were very confident that it wouldn't show anything nasty. They were wrong. I have invasive lobullar cancer. The consultants were surprised and myself and my husband devastated. I have had a mammogram and a biopsy of my lymph node from under my right armpit. I have been told they are looking to start chemotherapy straight away and it has been recommended that I have a double mastectomy. I don't know what grade it is, I don't know how advanced it is. I am just scared. Seriously scared. Do I tell my eldest boy? How do I mentally fight this? WI'll the treatment work? I thought I was scared of flying but now I have discovered real fear.
Kat
