Hi sammiejoe, the answer is yes, many still grieving for a life and love lost.  I'm in contact on my own page with wives who are missing loved ones years down the line.  Don't try and mix with others if you don't feel up to it, just do easy things, go for coffee and just sit and look around you, go for walks, little steps to let you move on to bigger ones when you're ready.  Family life will be painful but you're missing so much that's going on in their lives.  You still have a life to live and your husband would be sad that his death has made you miss out.  Turn the story around, he's left on his own, would you want him to be so lonely and sad about something he can't change.  I have one friend who is receiving counselling and it's helping so see your GP for some advice.  Take care and look after you, you're obviously precious to those who love you, don't let this grief drag you away from them.  Hugs your way,  Carol 

Just wanted to send you a virtual hug XX