It’s all so hard

I’m not sure where to turn or who to turn to anymore. 

Today is the anniversary of my mother’s death. It’s hard every year and I must admit it never gets any easier. She was the one person I used to turn to for advice, the only person who has ever listened to me, I mean really listened and cared. Losing her was the single hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through and still going through to this day. 

Fast forward a few years and I’m married now with kids, I love my kids and would do anything for them. I can’t be away from them, I’ve learnt that through the challenges I’ve faced and the things I’ve been through. 

My wife, I thought she was this amazing person, she knew how tough I found it losing my Mum, she never met her but I thought she understood. Anyway, recently she lied about having cancer, the doctors suspected she had cancer but she didn’t. Why would someone so close to me lie about it? Especially knowing how close to home this all is. We split up over it and I was kept from the kids, she told them daddy was horrible as he left mummy while she had cancer and all sorts. 

We got back together and she managed to convince me it was real again and she had it. I was there to support her and was finding it tough all over again. Then one day she said, my results have come back clear, I need no treatment and I don’t have cancer anymore. I took it at face value and we didn’t really say any more about it. She knows she was lying and I know it but it’s not spoke about. All she used to do is post about how she had cancer all over social media, since “she’s had her results” not one post, nothing to say she’s cancer clear. She’s not even told her parents she doesn’t have it anymore and it’s been 7 months, they still think she has it!!! 

I know if I approach the subject we will split and I’ll lose my kids and I can’t go through that. It’s so hard to know what to do. 

  • Hello lookforanswers.  Welcome to the forum.   Please realise that this is a complex area for those of us who don't really understand this syndrome of pretending you are ill.   The first thing that struck me was the effect on your children - very disturbing indeed.  It really needs to be looked into - I know your are desperate to be with your children and not asked to leave again but the situation is very unhealthy.  I don't really know what is best for you but I would perhaps have a chat with your GP (do you have the same GP) - presumably if she has posted things on social media (print them off in case they are deleted!) and ask his or her advice.  I am very aware that I don't know enough to give you any real advice but I do feel that keeping quiet and hoping things smooth themselves out will not work - she may do the same thing again.  Annie

  • Hi there ...

    Now this is just a thought ... I'm no expert ...

    But I wonder if she saw how much you love and miss your mum ... in her mind she wanted that same love and devotion you have for your mum ... maybe she loves you so much, she'd do anything for that love ... I'm just guessing ... I agree, there's no excuse for making everyone think they have cancer ... but I can empathise that they see a lot of love and care is shown when there's a cancer diagnosis...

    I think you really need to listen to her feelings ... I mean LISTEN ... not interrupt, not tell her she's been silly .. you don't have to agree with her, but caring on exactly why, she felt that need .. I think she needs lots of love, help, and understanding .... and then maybe she'll do feel strong enough to tell the truth .. 

    I think she must love you very much ....   Chrissie x

  • Hi i had it with my wife not cancer but lots of othere thing .its a cry for attension i found and ive seen it in otheres they get used to the sympathy become addicted to it .but its its an illness in itself your wife is ill in my oppinion and needs help but not what you know how to give its the need for constant attension it nearly drove me mad so i would go see your gp he will not discuss your wifes problem but he will know what to do ime no expert but have one heck of a degree in the university of life if you start calling her a lier you may find she is a wonderfull woman who needs help and who else can help her but you you may loose her if you get hard on her then you realy will hurt if you split up maybe you were so wrapt up in grief she felt left out and alone .paul