Hi.
I am new to this forum. I really need to know if what I am feeling is normal, that being lost and scared? My dear Dad was diagnosed with lung cancer a year ago, it was caught too late to be operated on. He has been so 'fit' throughout the last year - it was hard to believe that he had this devastating disease. However, he has been in denial and would not talk about it, which has been tough on my Mum, Brother and myself.
Now, 1 year on, it has spread to bones and he was in terrible pain however, steroids and radiotherapy have now helped get pain under control. 9 weeks ago we were told the devastating news that he only now has months.
I feel lost, I am functioning but inside I feel numb...but he is still with us - so I should feel happy. Fed up of people telling me to keep strong, in fact I have stopped talking to people now due to this comment, as I certainly am keeping strong for both my Mum and Dad. We have been doing lots of things as a family to make precious memories, and we are blessed that we can do this.
I appreciate there is not much that people can say or do. Thank you for taking the time to read this. It certainly has helped me writing this down.