My mum was diagnosed with lung cancer in may 2017, she's had 3 lots of treatment but since then been too poorly to have anymore. She's fought a tough battle and never once admitted defeat, she recently had shingles, she was in the worst pain. Since coming home on Thursday she's refused most of her medication, refused food and sleeps most of the time, she's requested she is kept out of it on oramorph and her morphine tablets. I'm absolutely gutted. She's so frail and weak. Not being able to do nothing for herself. She has said she's ready to go now which is breaking my heart. She's not my mum anymore but my God do I want her to be here. Selfish as that sounds. But I also understand she's not happy as she was so independent. Palliative care are round 4x a day. Her breathing is becoming worse now on 9ltrs of oxygen. I don't want her to suffer she says her tummy hurts and her skin is itchy. So as requested we top her up with oramorph and watch her sleep moaning out sometimes ( I hope not in pain) and watch her breathing, sometimes she doesn't take a breath for 20 seconds. My boss has put me on compassionate leave as I'm deverstated. I can't and won't leave her side. She's only 63. Does anyone else know what I can do or know how long she has left, she's not eating but drinking water. Xx