I’m watching my mum slip away


UPDATE My beautiful mum took her last breath, surrounded by love on Sunday 14th November at 18.33

 

 

 

 

Hi all,

Sorry I've not posted in a while, here's our story. My mum was diagnosed with incurable cancer august 2020 it had spread and mum started chemo to prolong her life. Everything was great until Feb when the chemo was no longer having any effect so mum went onto another one. Mum had 2 rounds and suffered a mild stroke in may 2021, then her oncologist delievered the fatal blow! She was no longer prepared to do anymore chemo, since then mums been in and out of hospital and is now deemed terminal, it's all happened so fast! This past week my mum is starting to struggle swallowing, having really bad hallucinations, memory loss and she just looks so unwell, we was told to prepare for the worst last week and my god we didn't realise just how quickly she would deteriorate. I don't recognise the strong incredible woman laying in that bed anymore and it's heartbreaking. When my sister and I arrived at the hospital this morning we walked into mums room and she was sobbing she's had enough and she can't do it anymore and it's all that's playing on my mind since we left. I wish for my mum to be at peace as devestating as her loss will be it's equally as devastating to watch her slip away. 
 

Thank you for being my sounding board feels a little easier letting it out. 

  • I'm so sorry to hear this and wish I could be of some comfort to you. I lost my dad to oesophageal cancer and well remember these times. I think just knowing you are there will help her find peace. Thinking of you xxxx

  • Thank you, so sorry for your loss, such a cruel disease xx

  • I'm so, so sorry to hear about your mum, your message really struck a personal cord for me as it was similar feelings I had with my beautiful mum. All I can say is she would be so proud knowing you're with her and just wishing her peace. Sending heaps of love and strength xxxx

  • Thank you, and sending you love also, nothing can prepare you for this time In our lives can it, although I was at every appointment with mum I always prayed for that miracle that they got it wrong. She's a fighter tho I phoned this morning and managed to speak to her and she was her normal nutty self  and I was able to see a glimmer of my mum if only very briefly, it's these moments I will treasure, as I honestly thought I was going to get a call overnight last night, I didn't get any sleep just sat up watching tv (although I can't even recall what I watched) with the car keys to hand. Such a rollercoaster. 

  • It cannot prepare you, and equally some people still don't get it. My mum passed away after an incredibly short diagnosis in march, and there are people I can't resonate with at all anymore so my advice is keep those kind empathetic people super close to you, they will help you during this period more than I can ever explain and really show yourself a huge amount of compassion.

    Xxxx

  • Hi

    I'm so sorry to read your story.  I'm going through something very similar with my Mum.  She was diagnosed with aggressive kidney cancer early 2020.  Kidney was removed and she had chemo,  but more tumours appeared quite rapidly.  She now has a completely blocked bowel and is too weak to survive an operation.   She can't eat and can only sip water.  She's wasting away slowly in hospital and is so frightened.   It breaks my heart every time I see her.  We've been told weeks... praying for a hospice bed to become available so we can stay by her side.

    Perhaps we can stay in touch to support each other,  if you would like?

    Jo.

     

  • Hi laalaa, I'm so sorry to hear about your mum. That must be very difficult to hear her upset. The same thing is happening with my mother, I've come to hospital today to find her basically just breathing. The doctor called me and said she is nearing the end. The deterioration in two weeks I can't put into words. X

  • I'm so sorry to hear this Laalaa and on behalf of everyone here at Cancer Chat I would like to offer you our deepest sympathies for your loss.

    I can't begin to imagine what you're going through at the moment but I'm sure our community will be here soon to offer you as much support and advice as they can.

    Sending very big virtual hugs your way Laalaa.

    Kind regards,

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator