Last year I lost my dad after he had lung cancer surgery as he suffered from a stroke after it. Now my mum's got cancer to and it's not looking good from what she's told me. I'm trying to stay strong and I feel selfish for being so sad when I can't even begin to imagine how she must feel. I feel like I've got this big brick in my stomach weighing me down and a constant lump in my front. I'm 22 and my mum's my rock and I would be so so so lost without her I don't know how to live without her and she's my bestest friend. I live at home with her with my one year old son and it breaks my heart that she might not see him grow up because he loves her so much. I feel angry that God decided to take my dad and now he may take my mum too. I'm trying to hold it together but I feel like I can't breathe properly and when I'm alone it's all that's on my mind.