In 2011 I lost my mum to cancer and I was only 8 years old. She was treated in hospital for awhile and then was but into a hospice. Even though my dad and family tried to keep me and my siblings away from what was happening I still saw too much for a child of my age. I saw her slowly go from the Mum that I have very little memory of to the mum who I only really have memories of lying in her death bed. At the time of her death I tried to push things away and forgot instead of dealing with them. I wanted to just be normal again because everybody knew I was the kid who missed a lot of school so I could be with my now dead mum. I use to love School but once word got out about my life I hated it because no one could look at the same. All my teachers looked at me with sympathy and I hated it. I wanted to push it all away to try and be normal. I tried hard but I couldn’t do it. I ended becoming very distant and not paying attention to a lot. Luckily for me I finally got the chance to be normal when I moved hours away from where I use to live to a new area so my dad could be near his girlfriend and our family. In this new area I forgot about all the things I had been through and I became normal again. For years I forgot about everything but now it’s been 6 years and everyone I know has so many great memories of there mum and I’m just stood their not saying anything because I can’t say the only ones I have is of her on her death bed. All of this has brought up so many fresh and untouched memories that I had but I can’t push it away anymore and I’m struggling to cope, I’ve become more distant and I just wanted to know if there was anyway I could be normal again
