i miss my dad so much. I just want to see his smile again and be with him. I don’t know how to cope or manage - he was taken to heaven two months ago tomorrow. I don’t think I can handle the pain and heartache. He was the only person I had and nothing helps. I’m not suicidal but all I want to do is be with him again. Literally nothing I’ve tried helps take the pain away - I am going to start counselling but I hate talking about my emotions. I’m in a really dark place atm and I know I need help. :(