I know exactly how you feel...the fear and shock when you hear the word cancer. The not knowing is very hard to deal with...I went from assuming I would have cancer too advanced to treat, to thinking I could deal with it. Your mind goes all over the place, that’s a very natural reaction.
I was diagnosed at stage 2b, so I wasn’t able to have a hysterectomy and did chemo and radiation. Did you have biopsies taken when you had the colposcopy? Next stage if a biopsy shows cancer is the mri to see exactly how big the tumour is and where it is located, and a ct scan to see if the cancer has spread. Mine was smaller than I thought it would be and it hadn’t spread...so I’d had given myself a lot of unnecessary worry.
However, you only have the opinion of a nurse at the moment, so it’s best to wait until the Gynae specialist confirms things. I really wish they wouldn’t speculate. Even my gynaecologist wasn’t prepared to speculate and only when the biopsies confirmed cancer did he tell me.
It can help a lot to talk to people who have been there, done that, so I would advise you not to consult dr google but rely on real life experiences and reputable sites like this one and the nhs.
I look forward to chatting, and hopefully being able to help you out where I can. xx