I'm 18 years old and I think my mom is going to leave this earth soon. I feel so helpless, things progressed so quickly. My mom is so strong and she's taught me many things about myself and we've always been very close. I'm not sure if I feel angry, sad, resentment, or blame. I don't even know where I'm going with this post. I want her to be comfortable and I want her to not be scared but we're all scared and she's in so much pain. My friends are there for me but I can't connect to them on these things, they're too personal and unrelatable for them, a lot of them have never gone through a hardship like this. My mom used to always talk about seeing me go to college, or watching her grand kids be born and that stuff just breaks my heart.She's been my biggest fan since day 1. She went from occasionally being out of breath to being admitted to hospice in the span of a week. This disease ******* sucks. I'm just kind of rambling on because I don't even know what to say. I love her so much and I'm just sad. I know these are dark times and I'm going to get past this and become stronger because of it, that's what she would've wanted anyways. I want to celebrate her life because she did so much for our community down here and everyone loved her. Sorry, at this point I'm just rambling and ranting. Thanks to anyone who gets through this post.