My Mum has/had Breast Cancer. I'm 16, I found out two days before she had the operation removing the tumour. We thought it'd be quick, after the operation we thought she'd need radiotherapy than by the end of late April she could go back to work, be fine.
Luck wasn't on our side, she had her first lot of Chemotherapy three weeks ago, it's been awful watching her so weak, she's a single parent as my dad left when I was eight, I'm used to just seeing a strong independent woman, to see this Cancer make her weak and vulnerable makes me feel sick to my stomach.
i can't cry, I just can't. I don't want to talk to anyone about it, I'm what my peers at school would call 'cold-hearted ***' I don't show emotions, unless their distaste.
i have close friends; but I don't want them seeing me like this, I won't let them see me weak.
i want to cry, I want to scream and I want to show emotion, but I can't, it's like I'm paralysed.
it feels physically impossible.
