Hi, today I went to the colposcopy clinic and had Cells removed and sent away for testing.

I'm am mum of 4 one of which is less than a year and can't stop thinking I'm going to be diagnosed with cancer and die 
I have always attended my routine smear on time but the last one was due just as I found out I was pregnant so was delayed by quite a while. I've never had abnormal results before so it was a total shock.

my symptoms have been lower back pain to the right, very minimal streaky discharge but no bleeding. Sometimes I've felt like I have thrush but no discharge or smell. I have been treated over the phone for water infections three times in a row (due to COVID haven't been able to see a doc) sometimes the need to pee comes from nowhere and I can barely hold it!

Anyway, not sure what I'm trying to achieve by writing on here but I am worried sick that my kids will be without their mum