Hi there red cherry ... welcome to our little chat room ... where there's so many on here who do know the feelings your having ...

The word cancer in any form turns everything on its head ... for me the word future took on a different meaning ... and like you those early days send your brain into overdrive ... every sinario runs constantly through it like a tiddlewave .... 

What turned my thoughts around was my wonderful daughter in law .. who got us all together and said ..o.k you got cancer ... we can all sit and cry or we can take everyday and every problem as and when it comes up ... no more "what ifs" and well do it, together ... so once we stopped and said right if wer in for a cancer journey,  well do this ... so found an old pair of boxing gloves ... got in the ring and win or loose , I'll give cancer a run for its money .... and changing my attitude changed everyone close to me ... 

Now I don't look at an end game... I'll take every day and find something to smile about ... it sure has got me through ... and as difficult as it is, if you can take on this journey with your husband , hand in hand ... even through hard days ... share hugs and don't be afraid to talk about how you feel ... your little ones will see how your doing and it will help them ... gentle honesty as they pick up so many vibes even when you think they don't hear ... you can do this ... your braver then you realise ... it's only when our backs to the wall, we come out fighting ...its not gonna be easy and youll have highs and lows along the way ... its not about getting knocked down , its standing up again when you feel theres nothing left ... sending you a big virtual hug ... Chrissie 

Very sad news. But remember that lymphoma is often completely cured. I am not a medic, but know he has a great chance. So hold on to that thought, and hang in there. I wish you all the strength, and all the luck, in the world. xx Harry