I lost my Husband Ian two years ago and yet I find that there is not a week goes by that I still don't have a down day or two where I cry and miss him dreadfully. It can be triggered by the simpliest of things, for the example the other day an invitation to view the latest model of car from the garage where we bought our last car arrived addressed to Ian, that was me upset for the whole day. A few days days ago I lost a stone from my engagement ring which had to be sent off to have the diamond replaced and I have sobbed and cried every day as I had never had the ring off my finger since we got engaged. I know everyone is different but how long does this grief and missing go on for, some days it still feels so very raw and despite having many good friends life still feels so very empty, I can be sitting in a room full of people and still feel very lonely. I am the only one amongst my friends to have lost their partner and when we have a get together and this is with people I have know since school which wasnt yesterday, I still feel like the odd one out, the odd number sitting around the table if we are out for a meal or drink. I find it hard coming back into the house and shutting that door alone, knowing my friends are all heading home with their partners. I appreciate I am extremely lucky to have such wonderful close friends and they do look out for me so well and keep me going but I would have thought after two years I wouldn't have felt like this still, is it just me or do other people feel like this after losing their partner for a period of time
