Hi
I am not really sure what to write.
I had a mole removed beginning of June. It had been there my whole life that i was aware of. The doctor spotted it whilst i was there for tennis elbow.
i went for the results on the 14th June.
It was Cancer.
I am utterly stunned. Its melanoma stage one.
I just cant process it. I dont know how am ment to feel, i range from heartbreakingly sad to raging anger and guilt.
i also keep looping back to the same statement of its not a real cancer like breast or bowel.
no one has said that to me, but me. however its all i keep thinking.
I am now suffering from the most crippling anxiety and i just keep getting waves of emotion.
I feel like i am blowing it all out of proportion, its stage one! it could be worse!?
I need a wide local excision on my arm, and they found what they think to be another on my back that also now needs removing.
I have a fantastic group of girls around me, my bestest pals. yet i find i dont want to bother them as i dont want to be the one constantly talking about the same topic all the time. it is consuming my entire brain.
We decided he is called cyril tho. needed a name that wasnt the dreaded C word all the time.
Thanks for reading, sorry it was a long one!
Stacey and bloody Cyril! :|