My mother was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer 2 years ago. She lives alone and she has deteriorated badly over the last 4/5 weeks from the point of leading pretty much a normal life to being confined to her living room chair not eating, becoming really confused and the last 2/3 days she has not been able to get around her flat and today basically having to carry her to the toilet. I obviously contacted her GP a couple of days ago who did bloods ect and another GP contacted me to say her bloods were showing she was anaemic so booked her in for a blood transfusion which was supposed to be done today. Due to a *** up no ambulance arrived so I ended up taking her to an acute assessment unit. Once in the unit they took her to be accessed however then I was asked to leave for obvious reasons due to Covid. My mother is petrified of hospitals and I don't know why but I just get the feeling this is the last time I will see her. What is getting to me is the thought I never said goodbye and she looked petrified as she was wheeled away. I did learn from her GP that she had cancer in her liver and bones however due to Covid she was getting appointments over the phone and her last one she said everything was okay so I'm not even sure she even knows. It's come at a really bad time as we have only just buried my mother-in-law and for obvious reasons I have kept my own mothers deterioration away from my children as although they are teenagers they are still grieving the loss of 1 grandma. Today is also my birthday and we are having a bit of a party obviously just our household and one of my daughters who is travelling from university. How I'm going to keep it together I don't know. I knew this would be a difficult journey but can't believe the speed in how she has deteriorated so much. Could this really be just down to being low in iron and may a blood transfusion perk her up. She obviously not safe on her own at the minute however I still have this feeling of guilt for leaving her there looking so scared.